So yesterday i forgot to only smoke 10 cigs, so today and until further notice i am only allowed 10 a day as a punishment for not doing as i am told. (one day she will get pissed off with punishing me and toss me to the sidewalk i suspect :( )
Anyway how do i feel about this, well if im honest with you im a little peeved at myself for doing something so stupid and basic, also upset that i had to get my Ma'am to punish me in the first place for not doing as she requested, what makes her think ill be a good slave if i cant follow simple instructions.
I do need to start doing better and try harder than i have been, its not fair on my Ma'am that she should have to keep punishing me for silly mistakes, but if i dont get punished ill never learn to be better for her, plus why would she ever want to collar someone once the steel collar turns up in the post that she finds difficult and wont do what she requests.
We've discussed the only reasons why I would quit you. Receiving punishments is not one of them.
ReplyDeleteYou do need to learn but that will come in time and I'm willing to put the effort into training you.
I worry that you may not follow orders on purpose to see my response and give up on me.
It's a risk on both sides. One we both seem willing to take.
Just learn and try my Erasmus.
Your Ma'am