Today i woke up feeling a bit out of things, just feeling down and upset, hard to explain why, just not feeling good at all ....Just not feeling myself at all, certain things just dont feel the best, do i enjoy being a sub/slave, yes that is not the issue, i enjoy the feeling and knowing whats what.
What am i unhappy about, i dunno really, its a number of things, part of me just wants to go crawl under a rock and vanish, part of me is missing things, part of me is missing my gf/fiancee since she broke everything off things just have not felt the same, altho she may be my Ma'am now the gf aspect has gone, at least she has not told me otherwise or even hinted were still engaged.
My head is just a mess right now and just need some clarification on where im standing, or kneeling, i have no clue what we are and every time i bring it up i get a "we shall see" type answer or i can not promise anything ... Its kinda confusing and messing with my head, I am bi polor and like things to be black and white.
I do not want my Ma'am thinking im trying to cause issues or start a argument, nor remove the cuffs she has told me to put on and finish with me ...... I'm just ... blah
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